Table of Contents

Acknowledgments

Prologue

Background

Introduction

PART 1

THE NETHERLANDS 1942 - 1949

PART 2

ISRAEL 1949 - 1953

PART 3

AMERICA 1953 - 1960

PART 4

AMERICA 1960 - 1977

PART 5

AMERICA 1977 - PRESENT

Closing

Photos

Epilogue

About the Author

About the Author

Joseph Gosler was born in Groningen, the Netherlands during WWII and after the war he migrated to Israel with his family and subsequently to the United States, where he has lived since. His life's journey has been a circuitous one and as a result he has often meandered off the main road. This is best exemplified by the 20 plus years it took him to achieve his BA in History and MBA in corporate finance through the City University of New York. For nearly 40 years he has worked in educational settings ranging from day care centers to private schools in the capacity of Business Manager. He and his wife founded a pre-school called Beginnings Nursery, have one son and live in New York City. Mr. Gosler retired from Friends Seminary in 2004, and today is actively involved in several Quaker projects, writing, gardening, traveling and walking his dog. Searching for Home, describing his life as a Hidden Child, is his international debut.

Reviews

Seventy-five years after Auschwitz was liberated, we continue to come upon new stories, unfathomable lived experiences. Joseph Gosler's book is an important and moving addition to the history of the holocaust, giving us the perspective and trauma of a child reared in a Dutch family with a Dutch mother, only to learn after the war that he belongs to another family and mother. —Pearl Abraham, author of Animal Voices, Mineral Hum: Stories, American Taliban and The Seventh Beggar.
As a child psychologist, I have not come across another book that better captures the psychological turmoil encountered by a Jewish child who is separated as an infant from his birth parents during World War II only to be given a new name and live with a non-Jewish family before being reunified years later. Gosler's road to psychological survival and recovery is unique and inspiring. I recommend this to professionals and laypersons alike. —Alec L. Miller, Clinical Professor of Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences, Montefiore Medical Center/Albert Einstein College of Medicine
Joseph Gosler's sensitive, affecting and beautifully written memoir belongs in the last chapter of the history of WWII. Yet, Searching for Home will be of equal importance in the annals of psychological studies on the subject of separating a small child from the only family he knows.The Holocaust initiates Joseph Gosler's early distress, but it is the aftermath that perpetuates a lifetime of dislocation and trauma. Born in the Netherlands in July 1942, the serial uprooting starts in early infancy, when he is hidden from the Nazis by a loving adoptive family, the Dijkstras. But his ordeal occurs when he is returned to his war-scarred parents after the liberation. A succession of displacements resumes with his parents, first in Israel and then in the U.S., establishing a long-lasting rift between Joe and his parents and a perennial simmering rage. Each relocation heightens his sense of not belonging anywhere and his constant fear that "life can be snuffed out or diminished in a nanosecond." Still, from an early age, Joe is determined not to be a victim. As he searches for a personal identity and a home, he is remarkably self-aware and brutally honest. It is this willingness to bare himself completely open that sets this memoir apart from many others. —Rachelle Goldstein, Co-director, Hidden Child Foundation/ADL
This beautiful poignant memoir of a very young Jewish child hidden with a Christian family in Holland during the Holocaust powerfully draws the reader in, while giving important historical and psychological context to the lifelong emotional devastation experienced by many child Holocaust survivors. The author's inspiring journey of perseverance offers hope for redemption to others. —Israela Meyerstein, MSW, Author of Bridge to Healing: Finding Strength to Cope with Illness and Miracle Nation: Seventy Stories about the Spirit of Israel.